I Stay

We all struggle with something. We all have fears and insecurities. I've never really told anybody about mine. However, I had a spiritual encounter a couple of weeks ago. It gave me so many overwhelming feelings and really got me thinking. I don't know why exactly I felt compelled to share this. Maybe God knows that somebody else needs to hear about it. So, here it goes. I pour a lot of who I am into the people around me. I love doing that. I love being intentional and just giving my all to the people I care about. Now, this is where that love of mine becomes an insecurity. A lot of times, I fear that I don’t matter to other people as much as they do to me. Silly, right!? I hurt my own feelings by thinking other people are tired of me. I worry that the people I care for will eventually just push me away. I'm afraid of getting replaced. I've always struggled with that fear. However, the majority of it is all in my head. Obviously, people care about me. I totally know that! I've realized that Satan targets our weak spots and tries to use them to consume us. Recently, I started a devotional plan called Distraction & Temptation: Choose to Stay with God from the Bible App . One evening, I was having a bit of a rough time. You know... one of those down days. I was stuck in my head. It felt like a battle field. Somehow, in my mind I was convincing myself that I wasn’t worth it. I felt so crushed and overwhelmed. I felt consumed. BUT, my goal is always to finish each day with having devotional time. So, even though I was discouraged, I read my devotional. This is what I read: My daughter, do not run away. Do not run from my presence. Here, here, my love, is where your safety is. Here, here, my love, is where your fast beating heart will slow. Here, here my love, is where you are captured, fully captured by my love and free, all at once. My love, turn your face to mine. I take my hands underneath your chin and raise your eyes to meet mine. Look Don't close your eyes or look down. Look into my eyes, child. My child, my daughter, listen now. I have you. Let this penetrate your heart. I have you. Do not run away. You are the one I want. You are the daughter I made whom I formed with my own two hands. My eyes are on you, child. They are always on you. And they are eyes of love, not condemnation. They are eyes soft and bold and sure in my love for you. You are stunning, and I am captivated. You are perfectly made, and I delight in you. You are radiant, and I pour myself into you. You are my own, my girl, my daughter, my true one, my found one, my cherished one. I will never tire of being with you, holding you, wrapping you up in my arms. Stay here, my love. I stay - Loop for Women Wow. I have never felt God so vividly speak to me. It literally felt like He was there. In that moment, God was there speaking these words directly to me. All of those doubts in my head went away. Those doubts meant nothing. He answered me. I've never experienced anything like that in my life. God cares about us! He reminded me that even though I live in a sinful world, He stays. He reminded me that He will never get tired of being with me. It’s so cool that God reaches out to us like this! He knows our insecurities. He knows our struggles. He knows all of these things and still loves us and wants to give us strength. I’m so thankful for moments like this one. Moments where God knows exactly what I need. We really do have an awesome God!