I am Called

So, here we are. I'm doing this. I've always wanted to keep a consistent blog, yet failed every time. This time I want it to be different. I'm doing this for a different reason. Two weeks ago, I arrived back in the States. I'd been serving as the First Grade teacher in Pohnpei, Micronesia for 10 months. Let me tell you, it's been VERY strange. I've been dealing with the time change, cultural differences, and missing my home in Pohnpei. My heart has really been hurting. Leaving Pohnpei was devastating for me. The past two weeks have been filled with many tears and questions for God. It felt like I lost everything in the span of a couple of days. I couldn't understand it. One day when I was at home, I felt like God was speaking to me. I felt a sense of urgency. I realized that although I had learned so much in Pohnpei, I had let go of my spiritual life. I let go of a lot. I definitely spent time with God during my missionary year. However, I found myself struggling to maintain it because I was "too busy". I could have done SO much more! That's what makes me sad. That I didn't fully realize until after I returned to the States. I had devotional time in the morning, staff worship, Bible class, etc. I had plenty of opportunities! I just didn't make the connection. Even though I was slacking, God still reached out to me and helped me as I taught each day. He gave me energy and wisdom while working with my students. He helped me to get out of my comfort zone and become more involved. My heart just wasn't fully in the right place. I hadn't placed Him as my highest priority and that's where I went wrong. I've realized that I could have done so much more if I had of refocused my priorities. So, the day I realized my mistakes, I decided to change. I decided to refocus and put God as number one. I made a plan. I grabbed some Christian books and bought a journal to write about my journey. I started right then and there. I've started reading some amazing books that have already given me so much clarity. I've started praying more consistently. I've started to feel more peace instead of hurt. It still hurts and probably will for awhile. However, I know to lean on God now when I have those feelings. Now, let me tie all of this together and explain the name of this blog. I am Called. Three days after arriving in the States, I had to head to work at summer camp. I love camp and figured that working another summer would be a good transition for me. Once, arriving at camp, I found out that the theme of the summer was CALLED. I am called. We are all called. God has called us to do something greater in our lives. So, I decided that this would be my new focus. To follow where God has called me. To trust Him and keep Him as my highest priority. Especially during all of the trials I'm facing back here in the States. I know that I will forever miss my Pohnpei home, but I am called to do something amazing by God. Check out our camp closing song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FgAzLKXqcDk